Sad licks, hot tracks

So.

Got some upsetting news in class last night. The short of it - the internship (downtown crisis hotline) I had originally applied for and told no as it wasn't "face-to-face" hours, well, turns out I COULD HAVE. Which means I would have been able to make my own hours, used the 60 hours of training as actual direct hours, and been 10 minutes from my home. No extra miles on my car, no extra gas $$, no dealing with ridiculous Illinois traffic/construction/drivers/idiocy.

My previous adviser gone done me wrong. He pulled that decision out of some stinky place on his person which we will refrain from mentioning. BIG FAIL.

I could have lived a very happy existence without EVER having known that internship could have been mine.

When I heard this during the beginning of class last night, and the head of the counseling department voiced his true sympathy for me, I had to excuse myself to go and cry a little.

Just a little. But inside, I was pissed/devastated/burning for revenge.

After about a half hour I got over it. It is what it is. Things could be worse. Life is short. But it did rain on my happy parade for a brief moment in time.

After all that, I got up this morning, went spinning, put some concerts on my calendar, and am generally right with the world again. I only have and advisor meeting and one client tonight, after which I will be having myself a nice run OUTSIDE, then off to J's for a tasty beverage on the deck while I get to listen to what criminals he's prosecuting this week. I have to say, we are never at a loss for good convo.

October concerts that I am jazzed about and can actually attend as they don't start until after my counseling sessions end for the night or are on weekends are:

10/1 Pony's @ Off Broadway
10/9 Toasters @ Firebird
10/13 Margot & Nuclear So's @ Firebird
10/14 Nomeansno @ Firebird
10/20 Walkmen/Japandroids @ Off Broadway
10/22 Holy F*ck @ Firebird

Even though I will be running my ass off (literally is the aim here) in prep for some 5k's in Nov/Dec and dealing with my lovely internship, I aim to finish this semester in style.

I've been dreaming of Scotland. A couple hot tracks on my inner turntable are below - enjoy.

New music Monday

And for good measure.....a classic.

The week of...

Breakdowns, breakups, and breakthroughs.

Had a mini breakdown yesterday, guess my lack of sleep and no personal time had finally gotten to me. Plus thoughts of my exit exam looming, and that I hadn't worked out in two days made me feel nutty. After some good advice from my brother I am right as rain. His advice? Simple...don't look at the clock. So I worked out last night after my internship...who knew the gym would be so quiet at 11:00?

Breakup - had to be done. I've agreed to be friends, but not sure how long this will last. I have too much going on, not enough time for myself, friends, family. I don't really need another friend. May be selfish, but in a good way.

Breakthrough - ah, that was just the clock thing. And that I really need to fix my car or get a new one - a decision needs to be made. Maybe not a breakthrough?

Getting ready to head out to Illinois...once again....dislike Illinois, driving there, spending time there. Will be glad when I am done. Kira is my only saving grace. Funny how you are thrown together randomly with certain people who turn out to be a touchstone of sorts. This last semester would be hell, save for her support. I like someone who grumbles like I do and gets it. Quietly.

Half day tomorrow so I can get some personal stuff done, a quick drink with Joe, then mags with Jill, then studying. Saturday...well, that's a whole other story. Studying at some point, in between school and a little fun. Sunday, family, cleaning, and studying.

Trying not to blink during these times when I feel as if life is passing me by.

Chilly Chill

So tired, but this deserves a shout-out.

Aside from a couple friends, I've peaked the interest of a few coworkers and now we have a substantial group who will be doing the Frostbite series. Right on! One coworker even threw out the idea of getting a 4-person relay team together for the relay marathon on 11/21. Fun!

On a side note, I think my productivity level at work reached an all-time high today. It felt really good. School was so-so, but I did knock out my two article reviews for my Trauma class tomorrow - emailed to the prof, so done deal.

Need to hit the hay, as I'm running 3 miles tomorrow morning. Can't wait!

Catfish

So this pseudo-doc that's getting some major hype had me confounded. Never one to let things lie (blessing or a curse, depending on the sitch), I googled and found a review that reveals the ending.

I had hoped for more. Maybe I'll get more, if the reviewer is leaving something out. Which I hope he is, because I need another "Baghead" experience soon. Such a good movie. As was "The Puffy Chair". Oh, and let's not forget "Cyrus" which was genius, as is Mark Duplass, whom I'm a bit in love with.

Anyway, I digress. "Catfish" seems to be a set-up for some freak-show, based on the "let's go meet this girl I met online, but let's do it late at night at some creepy back-woods farm and oh, what's in the garage?" scare tactic in the trailer. I never trust trailers, though. But I'm still game for what looks to be a semi-original movie with a creep-out factor.

I embrace

the curveballs life throws my way, and am glad to be able to have the wherewithal to attempt to catch them.

This past week was an interesting one on many levels. New connections, reconnections, missed connections. Had good girl talk on Saturday night, laughed at the barbies, got hit on twice and had to be told about it...I am astute when it comes to my student's issues, but apparently I can't tell a question from a pick-up.

Saw K, it had been many years but seemed like no time had passed at all. Easily fell back into old habits which was fine by me. Looking forward to seeing what happens next. Smiley faces on my calendar. A girl can hope.

I'm finding as I study for my exit exam that I know more than I thought I did, which makes me feel better but will not sway me from my study habits. Can't be overconfident about this. It's gonna be a doozy, no matter how much I think I know.

After having a good convo with Mary, I am more settled in my decision about B. You can't force something that's not there & I knew this a month ago but halfway hoped for more. Missed my opportunity to end it this weekend, so will have to wait until he's back from VA on Friday. Meh - I hate being the breaker. BUT, not as much as the breakee.

I started running again after five weeks off, and it was good to get back at it. Since my Nike's were wearing down, I picked up some new kicks. Avia's - haven't run with this brand before, so far so good. 3 miles tonight, no pain. I've also recruited a couple friends to do the Frostbite series with me. I did it back in 2005, good (cold) times.



I also received my Keens Friday at work. $20 and supa comfy. Gotta love 6pm.com



October 9th cannot get here soon enough. Test will be over and my internship will be winding down so I can finally get down with my favorite time of year. Lot's on the agenda.

And I think Florence is in - warmer in December, better food.

Life is good.